There comes a point where I get mad at my condition… when this happens, a whole new mindset takes shape and I become more determined to make intercourse possible…. it becomes more of a challenge than anything else.
I have not posted bc for the last 2 weeks my husband has been late every night with school, so progress came to a screeching halt.
We did our regular stretches yesterday morning, and decided to stretch again last night. So after we did that, I used the dilator and from there worked my way up to the biggest blue one. At this point I actually forced it a little bit (which is not safe and I do not suggest doing this. I know my body and I know what I can handle and what I can’t) I left the blue on in for a good 10 minutes and allowed myself to get use to the size of it, after I removed it, my husband and I successfully had intercourse for the 1st time in over 2 months.
This doesn’t mean we are in the clear… i am pretty sore today and we might not be able to do it again tonight, or even this week… it’s just a matter of listening to my body… I don’t want to push it further than it’s ready to go and do more harm than good… so we will see how I feel tonight and go from there… but it is a big step 🙂